Just the one SAD thing:

Him- Babe I don't wanna date anyone right now...im sorry but always know that I Love You
Me: Oh ok... i totally understand
Him: I'm so sorry
Me: (crying) it's fine.
Him: You sure?
Me: (in my mind) no... (what i type) yes.
Him: I have to go but i love you and you will always be my baby

2 days later:
All i did was sit in my room crying while i listened to Always be my baby- David Cook
That Night:
yelled at....don't get me started
Next day:
BFF: wanna meet me uptown with W?
Me: (i was free and really board) sorry i can't i'm going to the mall
BFF: oh ok maybe later
Me: (in my mind) no (what i type) ya totally

1 day later:
BFF: wanna meet us uptown
Me: (im free) no sorry busy
BFF: ok.....
J: COME!!!!!!!!!!!!
W: COME PLZ I LUVVVV YOU
Me: no
EVERYONE: PLZ COME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Me: (misery) fine!

At the beach:
everyone havin fun.....im there


Next Day:
BFF: wanna go to beach with us?
Me: (free) no im busy
BFF: ok


End of the day:
BFF: he kissed me
Me: (crying) omg im so happy 4 u!
BFF: esrdfvbhkjninvrsedrvbhllbuiofrdwawestvbuig
idc anymore just kinda stops talking


my heart is totally shattered and i hate my life
i just wanted it to b me and him...finally happy
but no...BFF has to get the best out of everything and she "deserves" the best

the question:
is it really worth losing your best friend that you could have FOREVER to some guy who your not even dating and you kiss him...and he may leave you?
i just want.......nvm it doesnt even matter
FMLFMLFMLFMLFMLFMLFMLFMLFMLFMLFMLFMLFMLFML

i just feel: guilty defeated un loved alone, sad, depressed, teary, hearbreak, and everything tht is pleasant

can we just stop?